Same-sex Lust Recovery in Sexaholics Anonymous (SA)

SA members share their experience, strength and hope



SA History and Same-sex Lust


SA founder's experience of same-sex lust


Sexaholics Anonymous (SA) began in the early 1980s, around the same time as other 12 Step programs dealing with sex compulsivity were forming. SA has always approached same-sex behavior differently to the other "S" fellowships. 

In History of the SA Sobriety Definition and Interpretation of "Spouse" and "Marriage" Roy K, the SA founder has written of his experience of the same-sex world:

Years before recovery I lived for some months and slept in the same bed with a singer whose lust was same-sex. I was his agent, trying to break him into show business. He wrote me love letters, and I had to hug him before every performance so he could sing better. I wanted to make a million dollars.

We auditioned before Jack Entratter at the Sands in Las Vegas and MCA in Beverly Hills. That experience introduced me to the gay world and gay lust. Matter of fact, it helped me see myself better.

The very first phone call I ever made in recovery was to a man in AA who called himself “queer” (he anguished over it). He carried me across that first impossible leap to freedom. My first sexaholism sponsor in AA had been a homosexual prostitute before getting sober in AA. He took me under his wing. He understood what I was going through; he identified. He saved my life. He later committed suicide.

 My “First Aid,” partner (p. 75 in the White Book), called himself “bi-.” He later married in sobriety. He was one of the original three members when SA got started in 1981. The third member was married. I knew I was no different than the gays and bi-s, and they felt the same about me.  

 

These men were part of my very survival.  .....  Many of my closest personal friends in the fellowship are recovering from same sex lust and experience.


In the SA main text (Sexaholics Anonymous aka The White Book)  he refers to his own ventures into same-sex lust:

 

History of SA Sobriety Definition


In 1998 the SA founder wrote a history of the development of the SA sobriety definition and of the challenges to it.  Disagreement with SA's sobriety definition has led to the formation, by former SA members, of 2 new fellowships, Sexual Recovery Anonymous and Lustaholics Anonymous.



The SA founder writes to SA members with same-sex lust - 1998


Also in 1998 Roy K wrote a passionate letter  to SA members dealing with same-sex lust. This letter addressed some of the critics of the SA approach to same-sex issues. The following extracts are from this letter:  

 some ... would shove... (same-sex attracted SA members) off to their own “preference” pigeonholes, keep them in their place, leave them consigned to their so-called uniqueness.

Is that the kind of Twelve Step program that AA tough love ushered into the world?

I say that most of us in SA don’t want to leave you “outside;” we want you inside—inside the same “impossible” recovery we have to face. We want you to stay with us and come through. Who said it would be easy?

Many, if not most of the opposite-sexers coming in leave because they also fear they can’t make it. SA is not for the faint-hearted. We want you to STAY. Stay through into recovery as we have to do.

Yes, SA is counter-cultural—subversive to the elements in our culture which are so destructive to the sexaholic! Thank God. No apologies. It’s not for everyone. If you want the “easier softer way,” the culturally legitimized, you won’t want SA, and we wish you well, wherever else you go to find help.

Strange as it may seem, the blindness may well be deeper in straights. Gays I see coming into SA seem to know deep down that they aren’t making it, that something’s wrong. They’re willing to give up being so shrill and infernally demanding, forcing the world into telling them they’re okay. But look at the straights in SA: Some of us act like we’ve got the world by the tail. But how many have broken the lust barrier? And how many of us can see our pseudo-sexuality, our mis-connection with the opposite sex. Are we spiritually blind? We can’t see that we are the original sex perverts. We who pervert the image of woman and our relations with women into just another form of sex with ourselves. Isn’t that same-sex lust?

It’s easy to see how a gay’s very identity as a human being today is being defined in sexual terms. But it’s more difficult to see how our so-called straight personal identity is predicated on our broken sexuality. Why can’t we see that we are all alike? That’s the depths of our cultural blindness.     

 

The Cleveland Statement of Principle (aka Cleveland Clarification) - 1999


In July 1999 at the SA International Conference in Cleveland OH, it was unanimously agreed by the Board of Trustees and Delegates Assembly (the SA fellowship-wide policy making bodies), to issue the following statement, which has come to be known as "The Cleveland Statement of Principle".

The 1999 Fall issue of Essay, the SA newsletter, detailed the process that lead to the issuing of this statement. 


This was in response to a perception of ambiguity, in the interpretation of the word spouse, in the original wording of the Sobriety Definition:

In defining sobriety, we do not speak for those outside Sexaholics Anonymous. We can only speak for ourselves. This, for the married sexaholic, sexual sobriety means having no form of sex with self or with persons other than the spouse. For the unmarried sexaholic, sexual sobriety means freedom from sex of any kind. And for all of us, single and married alike, sexual sobriety also includes progressive victory over lust.

 From pages 3-4 of Sexaholics Anonymous, copyright 1989-2008 SA Literature, all rights reserved. Reprinted with permission of SA Literature. 


The Cleveland Statement has since been incorporated into the SA main text, Sexaholics Anonymous, (aka The White Book) page 192 and the Newcomers pamphlet.

  

SA members from a same-sex background speak out - 2000


In April 2000, in response to the Cleveland Clarification, the following letter was sent to members of the SA Board of Trustees and Delegates Assembly. It was signed by 66 SA members from the USA, Canada, Australia, Singapore, Spain, Brazil and El Salvador.


To: SA Trustees and Delegates
We write as SA members for whom same-sex lust and/or behavior has been a major part of our sexaholism.   Your actions in Cleveland to clarify SA sobriety in unambiguous terms have provided comfort and security to many of us.

Some of us could find little support for our goal of sobriety until we came into SA. Some of us joined SA because it ruled out same-sex behavior as sober. Some of us have boundaries which mean we could not be part of a fellowship where same-sex behaviour is considered sober.

Some of us initially approached SA sobriety with resistance or reluctance, only later to appreciate its value.  All of us thank you for your clear affirmation of SA sobriety.  We thank you for saying that SA will remain the safe haven it has become for us.

Participation in SA Service Structure


SA members from a same-sex background have served in positions across the entire SA service structure: local group, Intergroup, Regional, and then fellowship-wide as members of the policy making Delegates Assembly and Board of Trustees.



SA Member Stories 2007


This SA publication contains 35 member recovery stories. 10 of these stories deal, in some way, with same-sex lust.

 Story # Page Title
 4
15 Under New Management
 8 30 It Has To Be A Miracle
 10 41 I Can Never Take Recovery For Granted
 13 54 Sober On The Inside
 14 60 A Deluge Of Grace
 16 73 Her Father's Daughter 
 21 94 True Intimacy
 25 112 Half Measures
 27 124 The Sweetest Words
 35 166 Welcome Home


Articles in Essay (SA newsletter) of same-sex lust recovery


Articles by SA members on their recovery from same-sex lust appear regularly in Essay, the SA quarterly newsletter.  New articles can be submitted to the Essay Editor. 

 2014
 September
 Essay around the World
 Rigourous Honesty
 2014
 March
 Grateful for SA
 2013
 December
 In the Hands of My Higher Power
 2013
 September
 Rocketed Into a Fourth Dimension
 2013  March  Loved Back to Sobriety
 2012  September  The Gift of Brotherhood
 2011  June  Celebrating 10 Years
 2010  March  A New Happiness
 2009   March  Facing the Wild Elephant
 2009  December  At the Airport
 2009  December  An Unwavering Vision
 2009  December  My Path to Recovery
 2008  September  Recovery in Marriage: The Real Connection
 2007  December  Young and Sober in SA
 2007  December  Only in God is my Soul at Rest
 2006  June  A Place of Peace
 2004  September  Danger: Taking Recovery for Granted
 2004  June  Half Measures
 2003  September  Just a Sexaholic
 2002  June  Welcome Home
 2002  December  Same Sex Issues             
 1998
 September
 A New Beginning
 1998
 June
 Gift of SA Recovery
 When the God Connection Started to Work
 Finding the Fellowship I Craved


Back issues of Essay are available for purchase from the SA International Central Office 


 Recordings of meetingson same-sex lust recovery

Topic meetings on same-sex lust recovery have become a regular feature at SA International Conferences since the 1990s.  Some regional conferences have also held such meetings. Some of these meetings are available as audio recordings. MP3 files of these topic meeting and other conference recordings where members speak about same-sex lust can be downloaded here: 


 2011  January  Irvine CA  Same Sex Lust
 2010  January  Nashville TN  Same-sex Lust- Am I Unique?
 2009  January  Nashville TN  Same-sex Lust
 2005
 Langhorne PN  Same-sex lust  - Personal 5th Step
 2003  January  Newark NJ  Same-sex attraction: Common Solutions
 2001  January  Los Angeles CA  Same-sex Lust and Recovery
 2000  July  Detroit MI  Recovering from Same-sex lust
 1999  July  Cleveland OH  Recovery from Psuedosexuality
 1998  July  Newark NJ  Banquet Speaker
 1998  July  Newark NJ  Victory over Same-sex Lust
 1991  July  Chicago IL  Banquet Speaker - Honesty